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(I know I spelled it correctly, but it still looks funny) Cue the creepy carnival music…..
Is life like a carousel? Spins you around until you’re dizzy and done? I’m not ready to be done. You’ll have to push me off this thing, because I’m sticking around for the whole ride. This is just another post full of random thoughts and questions. Today (several days ago, when I started this draft) I am confused but we’ll just go with it.
My carousel is spinning like mad right now. I’m dizzy and holding on for dear life. Both my mom and one of my sisters are very sick right now and I am helpless to do more than help make them comfortable.
I’ve seen a few posts lately about a digital detox. That is not something I’m interested in. I communicate to my friends daily through digital means and I’m not about to give that up. I need my friends desperately these days. I had a person I considered a BFF recently block me on everything. They had their reasons even if I disagree. But as someone with a very small circle, it is hard to lose one. I could detox by staying off social media, I guess. And really, I think that’s the point beyond putting down your phone for good. Reconnecting to the real world for even a couple hours could really help some people.
So, if y’all don’t know by now, I use this as a journal of sorts. For some reason, its easier to write here than in a real journal. This helps me sort out feelings and thoughts about all sorts of things. Even this random mess is letting me think about the not so random. I may not post all I’m thinking but it helps clear the space for the important stuff. Weekends suck for me currently. It’ll be a little easier when I can get out and play my sport. Right now that’s a bit hard for me to do with caring for my mom.
I feel like the vibe is off today. Everything has been just a hair off-kilter. But as part of my self improvement goals, I will not overthink things. I’m going to roll with it. It’s almost like I’m a half second off the normal flow. Anyway, whatever. I’ve been listening to a lot of music lately. Playing Pandora on the TV and just picking stations based on mood.
I’m tired of typing for now. Thanks for sticking with me. *creepy carnival music fades out*
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